2 different worlds

I was back home for 4 days during the National day holidays.
Home and Singapore are very different worlds to me. At home, there are minimal responsibilities except for spending time talking, eating and watching tv with parents, sis, grandma and aunts. In Singapore, ample responsibilities from chores at home, school work, friends to matters like meals and spending. I can really let my hair down at home, just to slack my days away. I've learnt to appreciate that more as I'm growing up, when responsibilities come by without warning, and the best thing to do is to embrace them and hope for the best.
But there's an inevitable fear creeping into reality. Nowadays when I go back, especially the last day that I'm bidding farewell to grandma, I will worry that one day she might leave us. Grandma is a healthy fella considering her being 88 this year. Hypoglycemia almost took her away few years back, but she recovered well from it after a few days in ICU. If not for her weak joints, she would be as active as a 50-60 years old woman, as her mind is still very active and alert.
I want her to know God. I want to see her next time... And I don't want her to go for now... She has become a figure head in the family, a firm foundation supporting the whole network of the family... If she is not around, things will be really really different. And I don't really enjoy massive changes. (though some changes are meant for good)
Haiz...Anyway, I shouldn't be thinking too much about this. I believe that God is overseeing her, and God will wait for her.
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School will be restarting tomorrow and this will be my final year in NUS. We'll be the big sisters of the school, though seriously I don't really feel like one. FYP will be the new thing, something that is so foreign that I'm really keeping my fingers crossed. The girls will all be back soon, and the house will be in its full strength. Waiting for bus will still be the routine, unless I want to walk to school for the afternoon lessons- something which is very unlikely when one is staying in a country like Singapore.
Alright, shall wish everyone ALL THE BEST for their final year! *Oh Sanmin just reminded me..I have to set some goals... (though our goals are roughly the same every sem..HAha)