Equilibrium not constant

Torn between many worlds. Trying to please this trying to serve that. Sometimes it seems like a chore, and many times I felt like rebeling and running away, and doing what I love..What I like... Seriously there's too much "I"s, I guess I'm too selfish afterall...

When can I reach the equilibrium? One fine day I thought I am there, but the next moment... Everything seemed to be out of place. Will I ever reach my equilibrium?

Sometimes all I yearn for is a sincere moment of attention, but many times it's being misintepreted, or at times it's not being translated at all. Disappointments and sighs... Sometimes small little things can mean so much, and as it accumulates it's massive.

As time passed by, people changed. I thought I'm good at adapting, but I guess I'm not that good afterall. For some people I just wish that they'll stay the same. But I think that's deeply unfair, coz I think I'm a criminal as well.

Bottomline, I guess I just have to learn to adapt. Once again, Charles Darwin...The survival of the fittest...